Crazy Daizy

I will be the first to admit that I do not like change. At all. Even though I know that some changes are good, I still don’t care for them. So, this week, next week, and the following weeks will be very, very difficult for me as we make the changes for our impending move to Alaska. Am I excited about this move? Nope, not at all. Am I worried? Oh yes, very much so.
Yesterday we put my hubby’s truck on the you sell lot and now we are praying that someone buys it and buys it soon. Silly as it sounds, it’s sad to see that truck go. It was the first major purchase we made after we got married and it’s been so good to us. We turned in our notice to vacate our lovely military house yesterday too. The house, I won’t miss so much!
We are trying desperately to figure out what to do with our dog. It will cost us an arm and a leg to fly her to Alaska and then she would be miserable since it’s snowing and so cold and she needs time outside. Really it wouldn’t be fair to take her. I dread having to explain that to Monkey, so I have delegated that task to Hubby. I will be so sad to see her go, she is such a part of our little family.
It’s been nice being able to find an inexpensive flight home when hubby is deployed and I’m missing my family, now I’ll have to save for a year to go home. Especially since there will be three of us to fly and my mama makes me feel bad because it’s going to be a while before she gets to see her new grand baby. I’m sorry, I know it sucks, but we didn’t ask for this, it was dumped into our laps, please don’t make me feel guilty.
Then there’s the weather. Hello, we’re from Alabama. They say snow and the schools and roads get closed down. It doesn’t get that cold, ever. I mean, in the middle of winter a long sleeved shirt and jacket is all you need. Really, what do we know about driving in snow and ice much less how to keep our children and ourselves alive in negative 40 degree weather? I’ll tell you what we know. NOTHING.
My Hubby will deploy soon after we arrive (hopefully they will let him stay until after Baby K is born), but then I’m on my own, having to figure all of this stuff out. It happened when we moved here, but at least here it doesn’t freeze for six months out of the year and I didn’t have to worry about my child getting frostbite or being eaten by a polar bear or attacked by a moose. OK, I know the odds of the last two are slim, but I worry. I worry about everything!
I’m really trying to find positives here. I know that God has a plan and that there’s a reason we’re moving there, and I know we’re not supposed to question, but I can’t help but ask “Why? Why us? Why Alaska?” We’ve talked to people who’ve been stationed there and everything we here is positive, so maybe, just maybe it won’t be as bad as I think it will be. I do love sweaters and here I got to wear them for about a month or so, at least now I’ll get my moneys worth!
I guess this rant has been long enough. We are looking forward to next Friday, Hubby is going to school and Monkey and I are going home for three weeks! We are looking forward to seeing our family, friends, and getting to go to the beach! Thanks for listening!